…… feel like they could start crying at the drop of a hat?
Or is that just me?
I feel weird.
In 2 places at once.
I’m physically here in Texas.
But part of my heart is in NY.
I know that I should feel good that I’m not there.
But I don’t quite.
Part of me feels like I should be there, doing what I can to support the city that I love so much.
But my heart is also here in Texas.
With most of my children and all of my grandchildren.
Especially the one I haven’t been able to meet yet.
I know that I’m blessed.
I know that things could be bad.
We are all healthy.
We have food.
We have toilet paper. For now.
So why do I feel like crying?
Is it because Jim’s not here …… in this horrific, history-making time on this planet?
Is it because yet another dear friend lost her husband a few days ago?
Is it because everything and everyone is so uncertain?
I’m not afraid.
I’m not worried.
I just don’t know what I am.
This is just …… the strangest.
One phrase keeps going through my mind.
“Jesus, take the wheel.”
Except it feels like there’s not even a wheel now.
Another phrase also keeps going through my mind.
And maybe …… it’s not just me.
Jesus, now would be a really great time for you to come back.
I’m just sayin’.