…… something I never, ever thought I’d say again.
Life is …… pretty darn good.
All in all.
All things considered.
I’m 7 1/2 years “out” from Jim’s death.
I will never be happy that he died.
But I am happy.
Of course I’d give everything up if that would bring him back, but …… it won’t.
So I’ve chosen to move forward.
And to live life the way I would have wanted him to live it.
I know that I am beyond blessed to be able to live my “after” …… my “second plan A” …… fully.
He’s responsible for that.
He planned ahead for the unimaginable.
He always took care of me …… of our family.
And he still does.
I will love him fully …… to the moment that I draw my last breath.
And who knows? I may love another man that same way.
I’m ok with that.
And I know that Jim is, too.
I’m in love with the city where I’ve chosen to live.
Beyond in love.
I am absolutely crazy about New York City.
Head over heels.
Who knows how long I’ll live here? I have no idea. I’ve learned to not plan too far in advance.
But right now, in this moment …… I want to live here.
And so I do.
I’m in love with all of my children and where they are in their lives.
It’s been a very, very long 7 1/2 years.
It’s been a long and arduous journey with some of them.
But right now, at this moment in time …… they’re doing well.
They are thriving.
None of them are perfect.
But neither am I.
And neither was Jim.
None of them live perfect lives.
But neither do I.
And neither did Jim.
I don’t wish for them to live perfectly perfect lives.
I wish for them to live fully, to live to their utmost.
I wish for God to lead them and for them to follow.
Whether they do or not is up to them.
I will love them unconditionally.
As a parent should.
I love being able to connect with widowed people.
I love helping them know that they are not crazy, wrong, or alone.
I love giving them hope.
I love that I’ll be doing that at Camp Widow West in a little over a week.
I can’t wait.
Life is something I never thought it would be again.
And I am blessed beyond measure to be able to say that.
Thank you, Jim.
Thank you, God.
Beautiful happy post! Love it!!!
Great post! “As reverend Mother always says when God closes a door somewhere he opens a window”! You were blessed with a husband who made sure you would live well even if he couldn’t share that life with you. I’m glad you are enjoy that road out the window